For episode four of Dear Mr. Knickerthief, Sophie and Jahannah are joined by Freddie Bentley, reality TV star and social media influencer. We go back to one of Sophie’s first EVER diary entires at the age of just 11, we chat about school, social media, self assertion, bullying and killing baby birds, obviously.
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My God after this was maypole dancing.
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This podcast talks openly about mental health, sex
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relationships, and various other personal subjects that some
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people may find triggering. Now, I know what you're
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thinking, so I'm just going to explain a little bit.
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Why do you mr. Nick, a thief.
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So, basically long story short, when I was in year 5, I went
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swimming with my class and a guy came in the changing room and
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stole everybody's knickers. So I did what any responsible
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ten-year-old girl would do. And I wrote a letter addressed
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to said, local pedo printed it off and handed it out around.
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Mike. Is it contained some comedy gold
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if I do say so myself poetic almost.
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Yeah, not only did little Sophie writes the local paedophile.
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She also wrote to herself every day in her diary and when we
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found it we like this is hilarious.
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People have to hear this. So your we are Sad, welcome
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back. Actor, mr.
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Nichol theme. And we are joined in the studio
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today by Friday. How are we?
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I'm so excited to be here. Thank you for coming in coming
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in, so excited to have you. I'm nervous.
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And I was going to be written in this diary.
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Oh, it's babes. It's juicy.
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From what I've seen from the peak that I've been allowed,
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Sophie wrote this diary for years from when she was a little
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girl crunch of the young woman and it's amazing and I think it
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needs some air time. Well this week guys were delving
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straight in okay, to when I was about 10 years old.
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All right, okay, so this is a little bit.
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This is this is a We've not been this young before.
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No, I don't remember. Being ten, I don't eat that.
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Yeah, I was confused. Yeah, I was always in Snow.
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White dresses. Mushy.
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Favorite Disney princess? Yeah.
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I didn't really get along with him to rela.
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Mmm. I could never get down with
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cinder. Do that cleaning.
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Yeah. When a bit of May, she's a bit
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of a pushover. Yeah, I'm not pushover, not
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appreciating me surrounded by seven men.
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That makes sense. Why you like Yay.
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Starts the 13th of the 5th, 2002.
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Dear Tessa. Can I can I just stop you there?
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What? Whose test so, well, it appears
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that Tessa was the name of my diary.
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Keep this particular time, you called your diary Tessa.
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It was really cool to know me Diary something.
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Apparently Diaries, dear diary, I thought so as well very
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Bridget. Well, this is dear Tessa crying
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Tessa. What my nana bought me this do,
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as you can see ya, very good. Fairies on the frontier, is on
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the phone. Okay, right?
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But it also says to my darling. Sofia Varma love Nana on their
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God, love her, but who tester Tessa was my Nana's name?
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So she's essentially writing her diary to hernan's.
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That is adorable. I think so.
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Okay, so what happened is changed today was the first day
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of SATs, which has finally arrived.
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Oh, and welcome back Tessa. I'm just welcoming back when
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she's talking to the diary now. She's talking to her now, right?
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Right. When we got there, we had chewy
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toast and Juice. Mmm, then then we went to the
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Loo. I've got a breath of fresh air.
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Well in the low. I don't think that's what you
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find a breath of fresh air. Absolutely not.
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What did you swallow plea? Then it was the first test.
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I, to be honest, was very relaxed math.
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I know I got it wrong. Oops.
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Anyway I can I just say you can I just say I love that.
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Hmm. And oops.
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Yeah that sound effects. Her diary I didn't do that.
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Take the can you redo that QE that textile didn't you say you
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had a math exam? And you were very relaxed that's
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what ten-year-old is very well. Obviously the diary Diary
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entries that we've read I love that that that my biggest piece
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of news was the toast. Oh, it's chewy toe is chewy
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toast. Is that like really What is
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chili peppers, tomatoes? But you know, when it's like
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been cooked, a legend sat there for a little while it's a bit
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cold and it goes well, it's hard though because like crunchy toes
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I guess it'd be subject to do you like soggy toast.
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I used to dip my toes to my tea. I don't like tea.
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I don't like tea either. So I just feel like I'm suddenly
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ganga. I don't know.
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Hilarious. But okay.
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So you like to eat oats and you are very relaxed.
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Feel maths exam. Boo.
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Anyway, after dinner, it was mental arithmetic.
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I've got a spell. That 10 yard is Paradise.
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I spelled it, right? I think I got two wrong.
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Wait for it. Oops, is that you go through
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life being like, whoops, I slept with them.
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Oops. Oops, I failed this.
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Oops. After school, I went to a flat
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tax and I jumped one meter 50. I didn't try any higher, it
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guides I made flowers and magnets.
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Wow. So actually if you jumped you
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were jumping 1 meter 50. Why don't you try higher Sophie?
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I don't know. Maybe it was a rough day.
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I don't mental arithmetic. I got maths.
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I was just she was exhausted. And then the flower magnets
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finish me off to relax into it. You could even want to jump.
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We've actually got a few more little diary entry, should I
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care? I'll go on, keep going, keep
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going. I'm loving it day.
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Two of the SATs we had toast today.
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Again, I think I've spent two days in the road.
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You gotta leave. We did science and math, I think
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I did well on both of them. Oh, my God.
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Bitch. It's not that kind of protons in
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babe. It's a it's a very old old
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English traditional dancing. It's you have to wear a
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particular kind of dress like, very old-fashioned, big
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colorful, dresses, and you dance around a pole with ribbons.
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You might have seen it like flats and stuff and pattern, you
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have to have always been a performer.
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Maypole dance thing. The one day you're doing the
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high jump the next day you doing mate, I didn't have all these
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extracurricular activity. I just don't know where you've
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had the time to write. The diary is always extra
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curricular activities. You've got such a busy schedule.
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I do not know how you've had the time to pick up your right hand,
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and I'm in finish the sentence. I have just all gone come after.
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This was Maple dancing, then ballet and tap middle class.
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It's really, really not. You did ballet and happen.
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Maypole dance. Just, I love my hometown.
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Okay, I love my hometown. But Google, barrow-in-furness,
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barrow-in-furness, and you'll realize boring.
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Just it's just it's just not the place that may pole dances and
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does ballet. It's got the highest.
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Is it? The highest heroin addiction
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addiction rate, unemployment rate?
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Yeah, let's sit down that pouring in your town was the one
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that appeared on benefit straight on Channel 5, what?
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Yeah, yeah and but you know what, the community there is of
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this a show Out to burrow honest.
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Yeah, they are lovely and the benefits.
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Can I just say here? Well, night, love Sophie.
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Craig, like, as if your diary didn't know who was writing it.
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Know how can you just check out my signature that guy?
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So it's, oh, I love you. Write better at 10:03, we had
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really crunchy toast. Oh, the toast is chain.
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I had a reading Banning in handwriting test in handwriting,
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I wrote like this and she did an example of how well she could
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write, you know, show me, just show that around to you all.
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She, I wrote like this. That's very nice.
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Well, what past halfway and I'm not at all.
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Worried love Sophie, I'm not at all worried, can I?
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Oh well, we're going to find out how you down the youth.
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That so that further on in the book because I just need to
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know. Now, because you acted, what did
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you get in your what even are SATs?
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Like, I don't really remember, just like knock off.
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Gcses. I think they really stressed me
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when I was younger, I thought maybe because they run about
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getting, they've got rid of them, haven't you?
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Yeah. What was the point?
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Because there was something new to wasn't there, do remember?
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Yeah. There was a bunch of putting
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that sort of stress on like what he'll do?
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You need to 666? Yeah, I remember in my SATs
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tests actually in your to what when you're very relaxed, very
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relaxed and chill Quran. She do getting punched but I had
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a teacher called Miss Modesta, why naming?
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And my friend sat opposite me. She won't mind me saying her
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name. Her name is Steph.
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Brilliant, hilarious girl. And and we were doing our sat at
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the time, obviously you've got to be deadly silent and she
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caught my eye across the table and she was like, Sophie just
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make a noise. He's like what do you mean?
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She's like making noise and I was a sort of kid that if you
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did, would you do anything? I would do it?
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No. Yeah, imagine that.
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Yes. And literally I was up
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I literally had to stand outside the room, the science room.
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Yeah. And I don't remember much about
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that should be, we've been really trying.
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Was it? That moment you realize that he
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was no longer car? Um, to be honest that's when she
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realized that she would just do anything.
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Anyone would say and it was that moment, she knew.
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Have you seen that? Very young age very young it's
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just people pleaser. I've always been a people
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pleaser I'm just going back to the having an exams so I
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remember they've got to funny exam stories Story number one we
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were in an exam for that. Think it was GCSE.
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Yeah a bird little bird got into the exam room in the the like
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the gymnasium that we were in Barker and was like flying
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around and we were trying to ignore this bird highlight,
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which, which wouldn't be. So distressing that was just in
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the caretaker came in and got a bag and caught the bird.
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Wrap the bag up, stamped on the back road junkie.
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We were had to just continue the exam but actually there was
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like, there was an execution of a baby bird in the GCSE exams.
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What the hell should have all passed us for that?
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Just for I would claim on that. Yeah, I would claim to be on
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that test, I'd like me. That would have been a star.
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If that freaky bloody caretaker hadn't been stumping, baby,
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birds next 10, you claim. Have you witnessed the death of
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a baby? I know what, that's why I'm
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thinking about sound like when he had took itself brave.
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But it was it just. That was the.
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Yeah. So my, you were some weird.
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Don't miss the Netflix, I just got that about you.
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Do you remember if a wasp ever got any classroom?
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It was carnage. Oh, yeah, God.
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It was a wasp or wasp The Best Day, Ever and exam.
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Story number to go for it. Is a girl that she disappeared
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halfway through time in year 11. We were like anyone seen this
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girl, we'll call her Amy. I'm like, we haven't seen Amy,
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what is Amy? And then we got to the exams and
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suddenly she turned up again in her school, uniform, nine months
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pregnant. No, they made her this poor
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girl, put her uniform back on which obviously didn't fit her.
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God love and I just remember sitting few rows back from her.
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And her like skirt had to be opened fully the zip to the
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bottom. They didn't even let her sit it
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because you have to sit In the exam room and I remember her of
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it and everyone being like Oh my God, Amy that's not gonna know
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me as a baby and it was dramas. Oh my God.
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You mean pregnant? I hate how horrific I like.
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We were 15 16 to speak about the getting told off as well in
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exams. So we I take, I took textiles,
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gotta say passed it with flying colors.
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Anyway, I did teacher. We didn't like each other Clash
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heads. I was being the class.
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Clown. When I was a kid, I were you.
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And we had to describe Hi, babe. And that we had to name a film
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that described us. So, going round and I'm getting
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excited because, you know, when you please yourself, because you
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know what you're about to say, giggling, you look.
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So she was that, Freddy your go away, Freddy Got Fingered and
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she was like, get out the car. She was fuming with me.
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And I was like, you are asked to describe you being on his.
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I was living my true life. There is a pretty good finger
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there is, there is okay, so final entry for the San Siro
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okay, day for today. It has been roasting hot.
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That's 20 °C 70 degrees Fahrenheit.
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Wait, wait. Roasting hot close to 20
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degrees. I'm from the north.
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Okay, that's it. That is, that's the winter in
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London, is the winter. That's sunstroke.
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That's not frostbite weather here at 250 writing test today
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and I went into the library to do it.
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It's about a boy that went back in, time to the Tudor period
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because of a book. He was mistaken for a gesture
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and couldn't make The king left. So I went to The Dungeons and
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was sentenced to be beheaded. I'm doing the whole bloody story
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and you just basically copying your homework out there very
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graphic. Just as he was about to be
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beheaded a village of found the book Turn the Page and sample.
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Some was taken back home ellipses with the Villager.
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What does ellipses mean Ellipsis is a dot dot dot?
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Oh, I didn't even know that I was there going.
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Who's I would you mean dr3 dots? Which means dot dot dot
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continue. Right sis with the Villager,
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Alex. You're very intelligent as a
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child. How are you?
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So braining, it was very brainy but I was the fire.
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You don't use it, you lose it, don't ya?
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Yeah. After school I went to look
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after beanie, because he was very hot, he's finding out.
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Who's been a? He was my rabbit.
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What happened to be knee? He got an abscess and died.
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Oh God. That on this forward.
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That's why you. That's why you give kids pets
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though. To teach them about death.
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Yes, I had a hamster for two weeks and I had to give Get back
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up because I gave it diarrhea. I might I gave it a PSD pause,
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post-traumatic stress. Yeah.
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Oh wow, what do you feed it? When I worry about how I have to
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don't like loud? Yes, yeah, that we would have
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given him full on diarrhea, right poopster so far.
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I played bullies tackle at the Builder and came home night.
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Wait, what? That's most northern sentence
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I've ever heard. I'll take Billy to add the wall.
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At least tackle. At the build us, a bully stock,
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okay? It's like bullies cycle of the
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Builder. It was called police tackle and
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the Builder. Where's it's not another thing.
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We just called it. The build-up basically was a
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piece of land that somebody started building the house on
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and never finished it. Oh, we used to play in it.
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We used to have. Wow it's yeah from I'm pretty
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talented. He's like you should start a
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Facebook group. Yeah.
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Saying who wants to go and play bullies tackle at the Builder
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will do and and see you does. Aren't you going to get by?
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100 people. Well, you might get yourself
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through or just ask him playing but he's fine.
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And that was it. I'm hilarious because then I
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came back to my dairy in your age.
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Okay. As the clothes here.
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Okay, go on. Let's do it.
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Okay, you sleep together. Sorry.
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Just clarify you skip to you. A lot of my Diaries do this.
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I got backwards and forwards between Diaries and I find my
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Diaries and I write in them from what their gift?
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I pick them up. Alright, in them from where I am
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at that particular time, right? Yeah, and this is says here.
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Hi, I'm Right now, by the way, I got straight fives in SATs.
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He he oh he he strengthens. I'm assuming that's like the top
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in. Yeah he must be.
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I think I got a one. Yeah.
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I'll have to say it was. All right.
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It now and then and it will have my secrets dun-dun-dun ellipses.
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Are you going? Is basically the youngest-ever
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entry of Mom all my Diaries and inspired me.
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You sound like a ten-year-old, what you do sound like a
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ten-year-old, but you also write like you're a 25 year old going
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through a breakup and a divorce. Now, I might like content.
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You've liked you much more intelligent than me when I was
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10 and now because there's so much pressure though on young
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kids at school. Yeah.
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My sister, the same age. Now as I was when I was trying
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to seeing that, it's so different is a different world
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that do not take talking all that.
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Yeah, I was, I was made pull down cinematic, magnets, that
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guy anyways and if they probably won't write diary, they're just
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probably did know. Now wouldn't you say do you
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know? Do you know?
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Alexa Alexa this is my day. Okay, thank you.
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Yeah they're gonna do that or they're going to be like I think
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there are going to be those like just we're going to just record
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everything about our lives. If we're going to be wearing
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glasses, that record everything and you're just going to have
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it. So you won't have to remember
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because you'll just go back to the the hard drive that has what
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went on that day? Snapchat.
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Did that though, didn't it? Kylie Jenner and they brought
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glasses. Yeah, that record your you can
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get a chat. Literally forgot.
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What's going to happen one way around because the older
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generation now. I like, oh no, am I dying?
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Yes. What are we going to be saying?
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No, but when the they said give it about 20, 30.
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Is an old people's homes. Music is going to be great
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because it's gonna be Austin Bieber.
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Yeah, baby baby. Baby.
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This Flow Rider. Like, I do, I think it is
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completely different and just even looking at things like,
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obviously, you do quite a lot in social media.
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Yeah. Tick-Tock kids that using
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Tick-Tock. Like my little sister doesn't
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have social media because my mum won't allow it to have social
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media. So good, I think a lot of kids
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now and it is another way like a lot of kids have it now and it
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is a big big pressure to have it, but it's also another way
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for people to single people out here, leaping bunny people.
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So I want to see that it's cruel.
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I am really cool. So glad that I did not have
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social media. My when I was in school That
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side of it. But like I remember because I
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was at the Asia phones appeared with cameras probably when I was
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about 15 16 and even then it was like two pixels that you
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couldn't really all these are my Motorola was the classic.
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It was in there with me. That's on silent.
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I don't know how that she is ruining the podcast.
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That's literally on silent, Apple solar fixing.
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It's all the things. Property.
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RC Ray. So we did a shout out on social
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media asking for you guys. Listening at home to get in
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touch with us. And tell us your experience is
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or funny stories. Or what was, what is it, that
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what most concerns you about your school years, okay?
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Because obviously we went to school way back when and things
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have changed now. Yes.
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So one of the things that they were saying I came again and
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again and again was exam, pressure and Body Image
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Pressure. That is what people are feeling.
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And the pressure to fit in. So we're going to shout out,
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Ellen Victoria, 91 said, my Ginger hair was my biggest worry
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and I dyed it brown to fit in finally.
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So sad. I love Ginger hair.
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I fancy gingers, do you? Yeah, I like Ron Weasley.
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Get you know what I thought I felt a lot of pressure is a kid
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to fit in and I feel like I feel like no matter what in life, no
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matter what you do in life to please other people, there's
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going to be someone else to comment on your appearance or
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the way you act. So I learned very quickly, a
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young age that job will just be you just be you and, you know,
00:21:24
find yourself within if people not going to like it and lock
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River your friends. And as soon as I started owning
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my gang - hmm if I'm backed off. Yeah, and because I owned it,
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like, Gary, I'm gay or straight, kind of thing.
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There's power in that vast power in like knowing yourself and not
00:21:42
second-guessing yourself. And it's a confidence thing is
00:21:45
you're sure, right? Fake it till you make Make it
00:21:48
and it's exactly what I did. Even if I was insecure about my
00:21:51
sexuality, I didn't let that off because I thought if people see
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weakness, yeah, they're going to absorb try on PO in it.
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Go through 11 million percent and especially I think where
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kids are concerned, I've always been a bit of a pushover and,
00:22:05
you know, I think throughout my school, I was always a good
00:22:10
student. I was, you know, I wasn't I did
00:22:11
was I was friends with lots of different people and but I
00:22:15
remember there was a one point. I was in.
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Has seven days a week, 8, Sophie club, and that was like, but
00:22:20
that breaks my heart and I had never done anything wrong and
00:22:24
some of these girls would like supposed to be my friends and
00:22:26
obviously it's just kids being kids but at the time I couldn't
00:22:30
understand it obviously it's just jealousy.
00:22:35
Like you don't see that as a kid you just take it out front
00:22:38
value. Yeah.
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Dude. What's wrong with me?
00:22:40
Yeah. Ever, you know and I think it is
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so there's so much for:. I'm trying to get into the
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building and I think there's so much pressure on kids.
00:22:53
Just I don't know, be something that they're not 0 but this is
00:22:57
the thing that comes with age and I don't want to sound cliche
00:23:01
because it's so is though it there is something about getting
00:23:05
older where you just go. Do you know what?
00:23:08
This is me and I'm comfortable with who I am.
00:23:11
You're so right? And having you want.
00:23:12
Like, because I struggled with assertiveness and things like
00:23:15
that, But when you finally come into your road, is literally, as
00:23:19
you said for it, like, a cloud has been lifted.
00:23:20
Like you cannot come for me because I am completely
00:23:23
comfortable with all my my flaws in security.
00:23:26
Yeah, Kira tease my choices, you know, right.
00:23:29
And yeah, I don't know. I just, I think it's so
00:23:33
important and I if there is something I wish I could tell 11
00:23:37
12. 13 year-old. Sophie is your friggin.
00:23:40
Awesome living. Yeah, you're weird and you're
00:23:43
awesome and that's how you are. Yeah.
00:23:45
And that's And you know what, those same people that did and
00:23:48
said those things will be the people that when you're older
00:23:51
go. Oh, she was a really good
00:23:53
person. Yeah, right.
00:23:55
And yeah. You think we're all in the same
00:23:58
industry? And yeah, what makes me laugh is
00:24:00
the people that were horrible to its core.
00:24:02
The people like, oh my God, you're doing so well for
00:24:05
yourself. Yeah but then we're the ones
00:24:11
that got the last laugh especially For You Freddy
00:24:13
obviously you blew up over. Yeah like you obviously you're
00:24:16
in the circle minute that you come out your life's changed.
00:24:19
Completely changed. Can imagine for you.
00:24:21
That must have been even like on a massive scale.
00:24:24
I mean people that I didn't speak to four years or like took
00:24:27
the mick because I was gay. Suddenly a like breaks.
00:24:30
My oh my God. You've done so well and I've
00:24:32
literally not even entertained the messages.
00:24:35
I won't even respond here. I did put something up when I
00:24:37
first come out, right? It does actually make me
00:24:39
hysterically laughs. The people that didn't want
00:24:41
nothing would walk past me in the street and say, no, it
00:24:43
wasn't a lie. Now, want to buy me a bunch of
00:24:46
Hours. Yeah, I'm not kicking.
00:24:48
You crowd was. Yeah, I'd only up guy favorite
00:24:50
that one flower. So mad cow 74 said, girls and
00:24:56
being bullied and there is a lot of people here.
00:24:58
Emma g, 0x. X said girls being mean women.
00:25:02
I mean I'm 30 and I'm still regularly having to deal with
00:25:05
bull poop. And it is actually something
00:25:07
girls are. I went to a girls only school.
00:25:11
So my secondary school was just girls and it was, there was a
00:25:14
lot of restriction in there. And I had, I did have a friends.
00:25:18
I was not in the popular group and I had my own little group of
00:25:21
like weirdos, but I unfortunately had a few years of
00:25:24
having a frenemy, which is really unusual.
00:25:28
It's a thick type of friend. I yeah, I had a friend and she
00:25:31
was my friend but now looking back.
00:25:33
I'm like, no, she bullied me. She pushed a lot of her problems
00:25:37
onto me. She, I was the skinniest little
00:25:39
kid and but I was sort of I was like, skinny flabby.
00:25:43
So I was skinny, but had little pot belly and this Go would go
00:25:46
out me for my belly and she'd squeeze it and she called me.
00:25:49
Oh George podge and and things like that.
00:25:52
And then looking back I was like this girl was big and I didn't
00:25:56
really register at the time. You don't think about that
00:25:58
stuff. When you're like 12, I was like
00:25:59
she was in my eyes. She was beautiful because she
00:26:01
had boobies. Yeah but she was for that age
00:26:06
and stuff. She was a heavyset girl and
00:26:08
obviously she bought maybe wasn't and she was just pushing
00:26:10
that on me and and they used to play this game.
00:26:12
I didn't have a I hate drama club but I did have it was
00:26:15
called Johannes shut up. Up.
00:26:16
So they would call me because whenever someone calls your
00:26:18
name, you go, yeah. You just turn around.
00:26:21
So these girls and she got other girls to do it as well where
00:26:24
they go to Hannah and I'm like, yeah and they go shut up.
00:26:26
Oh my God. How did grade?
00:26:28
And they try and laugh it off. Like I got me good but actually
00:26:31
it was horrible and this girls getting other girls to do it to
00:26:34
me. And it took me until you ate
00:26:36
when I had to take a stand and this girl would come and pick me
00:26:39
up every day. We should not for me.
00:26:40
And we go to school. And if she was late, that meant
00:26:42
I was like, so I had to wait for her and one day, I remember she
00:26:45
knocked and I Mount and I hid in the house and I let she went off
00:26:49
to school and then she didn't speak to me again, but I was
00:26:51
free. I was free of the Frenemy so
00:26:54
horrible. But you know what?
00:26:55
That's, that's really good though.
00:26:57
The even by your eight you were able to.
00:27:00
Yeah, this want this. This is a chronic toxic.
00:27:02
Yeah. Shit because toxic relationships
00:27:04
aren't just to do with your partner that you just.
00:27:07
Oh yes. Friends friendships as well and
00:27:10
letting go of that. I'm witnessing it now with my 10
00:27:12
year old sister and I am literally there are girls that
00:27:15
are Our so that our Frenemies that our Frenemies.
00:27:19
They're so mean to her and that the so nice to the next 10 and
00:27:21
the sub into the next day. I might not have been through a
00:27:23
lot as you know of. Yeah, and it makes me so angry.
00:27:28
I wish I could I wish she knew what I know now.
00:27:34
Do you know what I mean? And an approach it with that if
00:27:37
I could. And what was interesting was I
00:27:39
was quite a shy kid and I was because all my reports I
00:27:42
remember in year 7, I got a C in drama because I'm Report said,
00:27:47
johana, doesn't want to like, instigate in the class.
00:27:49
She, she doesn't wanna come forward.
00:27:51
She's quite quiet, the minute. I dropped that friend.
00:27:54
My year. Nine report I got an A in drama
00:27:57
johana won't shut up. Johanna wants to be at the front
00:27:59
and is directing everyone know what they're knocking you down
00:28:02
by telling you to shut up. Although you thought at the
00:28:04
time, it was probably find it. Shut up.
00:28:06
Yeah, you did. Shut up and I said, dig, dig
00:28:09
dig. Dig it Sucka.
00:28:09
It's like that bird at the tree. Yeah.
00:28:14
And it was amazing. Just seeing my seat.
00:28:16
Seeing my two different grade results from those three years.
00:28:19
I was like, wow, those big power back to me for dropping going
00:28:25
back to obviously what mad cow saying.
00:28:27
She's still witnessing it. Now, in her 30s.
00:28:29
I think that a lot is to be said for the people that you surround
00:28:33
yourself with exactly. I recently with everything
00:28:37
that's gone on with my dad passing away.
00:28:39
Yeah, sure. I you do you start to see people
00:28:43
for what they really are when big things happen in your life.
00:28:45
And I've actually She just taken a step back from the
00:28:47
relationships. That make me feel good.
00:28:50
Yeah, necessarily I'm not being mean and they may not
00:28:53
necessarily be mean, but they're not making me feel good.
00:28:55
So I don't, I've decided to just step away from it and allow it.
00:28:58
Yeah, always be lovely. Always be civil.
00:29:00
Always be kind. But what I would say is perhaps
00:29:02
take a step back from the relationships that aren't making
00:29:05
you feel good. And does not make you a bad
00:29:07
person. The thing that matters most in
00:29:08
the world, is this as you yourself, right?
00:29:10
So we had a vision, you are the person that is in all of this
00:29:13
and if something's not making you feel good, it doesn't make
00:29:15
you a bad person. Just Step back from it.
00:29:16
The moment is being weird. Woman.
00:29:18
Yeah. Oh, it's hard to like Kiki.
00:29:20
I'm a messy believe we're at the universe and like what you put
00:29:23
out you receive. So if you're going to surround
00:29:25
yourself by negativity or even entertained bullies because
00:29:29
that's what that were applying and like reacting it is
00:29:31
entertaining and that's exactly what they want then that you're
00:29:34
putting out and universe, but you're being negative to someone
00:29:38
that's got to come back around at some point and it's going to
00:29:41
hit you. Whether it's now or six, one
00:29:42
time it will hit you like a sack of bricks.
00:29:45
Yes. Because Is it stylist?
00:29:47
Love hearing you talk Fred agreed on as you should have.
00:29:49
Let you should just go to soapbox.
00:29:52
I'm going I've got it. Yeah, believer in the universe
00:30:00
and I feel like, for me, it's really worth it.
00:30:03
I had a bit of a Down week, last week, I think we all do
00:30:05
specially in an industry where you're self-employed sometimes.
00:30:07
Yeah, very straight get work. And I then changed my mindset
00:30:12
completely by the Monday. And so much work come in.
00:30:16
And that's what happened. Yeah, so that's what I think.
00:30:20
That's why I would say, I'd say take a look at the people that
00:30:22
are surrounding you. If you're feeling like, you
00:30:25
know, there's a lot of crap going on.
00:30:26
There's a lot of people talking then step away from those
00:30:30
relationships. Yeah, friendships are quality
00:30:33
not quantity, correct. The 100% guys, we had to come in
00:30:42
to land here. Thank you so much.
00:30:43
Ready for coming. How much fun?
00:30:47
They had an amazing. Thank you darling.
00:30:49
Having you on the show. Thank you so much.
00:30:51
So girls guys, be sure to check out Freddy, where can I find you
00:30:55
on Instagram? It's very beneficial and on
00:30:57
Twitter. It's Freddy Bentley Fabio
00:31:00
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00:31:03
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00:31:04
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00:31:05
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